I Quit!

Generally speaking I am not a fan of new year's resolutions. Why is it that people feel the need to put off everything that they know needs to be done today thinking that somehow, magically the inspiration to pursue goals, break bad habits and create healthy ones will manifest on January 1st? If it is so important to you then not only why, but rather how could you possibly put it off until another day? How could you waste something so precious as a day of your life? Every day you have is a gift. To knowingly not give your best effort every day is to waste that most precious of gifts. How many people do you know in this world that would give anything for just one more day?

While this has been a core belief of mine for some time I have a confession to make, I have been wasting some days lately. I have not given it my all every day. I have not done all that I could do or given all that I had to give. I have procrastinated and put off until tomorrow, next week, next month what I knew had to be done today. I would like to apologize to all of the people in my life whom I love and care about for allowing this to happen. I let you down. Worse then that I let myself down.

Somehow over the last number of years I allowed my passion to be slowly drained out of me to the point where I was simply going through the motions. Yes people, I mailed it in and I'm sick of it! I'm done being depressed and unhappy and I'm done not bringing everything I have, every single day. I don't know who that person was, but it was not me. I am all about passion and I will not waste another day not passionately pursuing my dreams and ambitions.

So back to the reason for this my first Blog post, I quit! Two of my favorite quotes are, "Let the beauty of what you love be what you do," by Rumi and, "If you enjoy what you do, you will never work another day in your life," by Confucius. Somehow I lost sight of what I love and henceforth my career very much became work. So this year I have given myself permission to relax my stance on resolutions and I only have one of them, I'm done with work! I'm calling in well and I'm never going back to work again.

I am going to wake up every day and say thank you for this gift of today! Thank you for giving me the gift of living my dream for the last decade plus and for the opportunity to pursue my new dreams in the decade to come. I will not waste another day. I will not wait until tomorrow, next week or next month. I am going to bring it all right here, right now, from the moment I wake until the moment I close my eyes and wait to unwrap tomorrow's wondrous gifts.

Now to some of you everything may have seemed like it was fine, but there in lies the problem. You see for me "fine" never really was. Fine was not good enough for me and I can't believe I allowed it to become so. I do not want to be fine, I want to be extraordinary. I do not want the status quo, I want the remarkable. I do not want to revel in normality, I desire to be exceptional.

To my closest friends and loved ones, I am requesting your help in this respect. I am asking you to help hold me accountable to my aspirations by calling me out and if need be smacking me upside the head for even considering wasting my most precious gift. To those of you have already done so in the past, thank you from the bottom of my heart, you will never know how much it meant to me.

I feel like I have been asleep and am waking up from an extended slumber. I will not go back to sleep ...

Light to dark, dark to light
I am alive, I am AWAKE!